8:58 PM

green FREAK!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I can't bite my tongue forever, while your trying to play it cool.

10:41 PM

green FREAK!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Gahhhhhhhhh.
Science is great.
Celine is the best bus buddie.
Chermaine is the best lab partner.
I want to die.
Bye.

5:00 PM

green FREAK!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Two more weeks to the one week break. Alas, I can never phantom the mysteries of how fast the days go by in a year. It amazes me how fast time flies. How it doesn't slow down when your having fun or speed up when your hurting but moves at a certain pace, that's just about right.

9:15 PM

green FREAK!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

This is a post to let the lovely, supportive people reading this blog that I'm still alive, well and kicking. I wonder who reads this pitiful blog of mine anyway. If you did, you could do me a tiny favour by leaving a tag to let me know I'm doing "some good" in someone's life. Or wasting your precious time more like it.
So sunday was the Altar Servers Lunch for their invest. Maybe one day it'll be the gift bearers turn eh? Hope hard.
After that we had GB comm Meeting. Then came back went for dinner. Slept.
OH! My Phone's recovered. See, it totally like's me Gabriel:P. Turns out I forgot the Pin number like the absent minded fool I am. But the wonderful people at singtel sorted it all out.
Massed today. Sang at the choir, first time in ages? Gabriel convinced me. He was lucky he caught me in a blur mood. Haha(:
Homily was meaningful. Didn't manage to concentrate fully. Was distracted by the song picks and all. But Fr. Bosco was talking about Letting go of unhealthy relationships. And leaving it to God. Guess its what I have to do then, Let go.

I was sitting on my doorstep, I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand, But I knew I had to do it, And he wouldn't understand, So hard to see myself without him, I felt a piece of my heart break, But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,I guess I'm gonna have to cry,And let go of some things I've loved,To get to the other side,I guess it's gonna break me down,Like falling when you try to fly,It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
Time heals,The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now...

9:30 PM

green FREAK!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Lost. I lift it up.
I lift up the GB camp. I lift up the stress, the worries, the fear, the pain, everything.

6:06 PM

green FREAK!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Got sick of standing in the sidelines while my classmates do PE, cause if you don’t know, I’m on long term MC. Especially now when their doing the netball component. Its excruciatingly painful to watch my classmates fool around with the netball while I sit down, like some lethargic person. So, today I coped a netball halfway through the PE period and starting shooting hoops. Managed to sink 15 hoops before the period ended. Ms wang wouldn’t let me do the what she describes as stringent netball chest pass exercises yet): She said next week. But there’s no PE thanks to lovely common tests. Ah well.
In art class Vanessa and Beatrix were talking about the various bunks in our school, and fully on grossing me out. I must say its still disturbing that to know that one of the girls which I’ve knowed since primary school days has turned to the other side. Yea. Its pretty sad though. The things she does for “love”. Pretty sick too. But who am I to judge? She is still a child of God after all.

Today I open upped abit more(: yea. Its great. I was once told to know as many people as I can, while I’m young. So yes, I want to know you too(: Haha.


Lost in your eyes.

8:37 PM

green FREAK!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Starting to feel the pressure of the Common tests which are next week. Shall be studying my brains of for the next couple of days. Won’t be able to make it for mass tomorrow): As I’m having math tuition. Math’s been great. Love polygons and angles. Their just real interesting, algebra is challenging. But nothing beats the satisfaction of solving a tedious algebra question. Won’t be blogging or facebooking for some time, due to the fact that exams are next week. So you won’t hear from me till this weekend(: or the next.
Reminder to self: Study Chinese. Its time to face my worst nightmares.





Today, The cut closed. Abit.

9:32 PM

green FREAK!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

9:46 PM

green FREAK!

Happieness can be felt in moments of pain too, that was thankfully demonstrated today.
Thanks to a bunch of really great, really nice people in church and the 2008 P6 faithians of OLGC.
Canteen was a blast. I mean it.
Woke up around six. Nicole woke up too, (;
Met at the canteen decked in our white shirts at around 645.
Helped set up and stuff. My shift was kinda at 1045 but I just had to come earlier and help out(:
Helped Nicole with the bread counter set up thing. The poster was really cool.
then barbara and Natalie Kwan arrived so I chatted with them for abit.
Rebekah came to do her shift which was for 7am mass. But she was sent home, cause her house was the nearest to fetch kitchen tongs and can opener. So she ask me to "pei" her since the 7am crowd hadn't finish mass yet. So I did. Had a nice chat on the way(: She was saying what : kitchen caterer." haha:] We've both got something in common now mann.:x hehe(:
Then it was pretty much rush hour till the end.
Helped out at canteen counter and bread counter and abit of tire polishing.
Couldn't do logistics cause I had to go for the youth meeting thingy.
Which Nicole so kindly signed up and came with me.
Oh I forgot, went to the park for abit with the hearted. Started taking pictures like the posers we are man. I'll upload the best ones here, so you lucky people reading this blog get to see them. The ones on facebook ain't that pretty(:
Youth session was great. 5th grader quiz was really cute. Though I must admit I was pretty shocked at the behaviour of some people we were sitting near to. But ah well. Session was cool. Yupp.

Wonderful people to thank for canteen.
Those who supported us, of course.
Bekah for selling mee siam next to me.
Joshua, golden hands boy, your not useless. Your just so funny man. Not in my cath class though):
Belinda, for helping around. You rock(:
Sheri, porridge selling was really fun eh. Especially when you me and bec started mixing condiments inside. Its okay, I don't know how to da pow also. haha
Giselle, For you cheery presence.
Nicole, for all the great little chats we've had between rush hours. and for acompanying me to OLGC and the youth session.
Celine, haha. See, bread is so much funner then tyre polishing.
Sean and Tim, for the "free milo". haha(:
Natalie, you so cute to watch man.
CLAIRE CHENG, there's nothing to say man. I've siad it ALL. your th best.
Jayne, Annabel, You guys have changed so much in 6months. Its amazing. Loves.

So after session, me and Nicole or Nicole and I headed to OLGC where they were holding some kind of car boot cum funfair national day thingy. Which was really fun. Met up with lots of my old classmates. Annabel, Denise, Sherlyn, CLAIRE and Jayne. Place was really interesting, or the stuff there was. I got red shades. So Claire has shades, and Nicky got the same ones except her's is purple. After that Claire and I walked up the hill back to the church bus stop and I actually took the 317 bus even though my lane was like two lanes away from the bus stop. Guess that what happens when you don't see your bestest friend for some time eh?


Reminder. Got to study man. Exams next week.
And I should stop using "man" its really annoying. Even for me.


Today I forgot, thanks you all.
But though out it all, I still look out, for you.

9:17 PM

green FREAK!

My classmate and I had this really hilarious converstion in class the other day. During lit. I shall post it in tomorow's post. So if you can be bothered, read my blog tomorow(:
Just got back from the last session of the week of guided prayer. was a pretty good experiance. Made me realise how busy I am in this life, that sometimes I just haven't got the time for God. Made me ponder on why that is so. Made me realise that life has so many distractions, its amazing how we can fit God into all this mess.

4:40 PM

green FREAK!

Did I mention that on monday and tuesday, there were like only 19 and 17 pupils in class? Yea, hence. My class has sorta been hit with the quarantine bit so today we were "evicted" from our ct venue (well, sorta.) and banished to the basement classrooms as a precationary manner. Their not letting on whether or not someone has gotten the flu though, prolly to keep the peace and to avoid a state of panic in my somewhat "peaceful" class. Yea, we totally get an earlier recess so we don't mingle with the rest of the school though, so thats been great.



It's not a feeling like when you touch a flame
No, it's not like when someone calls you a bad name
It's not like the hurt when you slip and fall down
No, it's not like anyof these, what I've found is

Your love hurts like a paper cut, so sweet
never even feel the slice; you're so deep
It seems so hard as, but only at first
Cause like a paper cut the pain grows worse.


................................And if you only knew, man. If you only knew. How much it hurts. Would you care? Does it matter? I doubt.


You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart is through for you
I'm trying to break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's lead the past, Is that too much to ask?And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

Pull through this together.

4:59 PM

green FREAK!

If I cry tonight, I won't stop.
If I miss you in my dreams, I know it'll be alright. Eventually.
Cause there's reality in dreams.
It'll be alright.
I'll be alright even though I'm not okay.
Guide me, Lord. Rub away the deepest of scars.

9:29 PM

green FREAK!

I got tagged in Celine's photo on facebook.
As a drunk??!!!
So here's the comment thread. Pretty funny to see the conversation me and my fellow friends have on facebook. Sigh. The things the kids do these days. Makes life a whole lot more interesting then before eh? See the photo at Celine's profile. Or you can add me then find it on mine. Oh, and what made matters worst was that we were facebooking while we were "suppposedly" elearning. heh.


The comment thread.

Jaime Chng
I'm a drunk?
11 minutes ago · Delete

Celine Sim
YEP :)
11 minutes ago

Jaime Chng
LOL"(: Really meh.
10 minutes ago · Delete
Celine Sim
YEPp sheri is The so in love lols >< haha
8 minutes ago

Jaime Chng
haha, true. This is sinful. we are supposed to be "doing our work"
6 minutes ago · Delete

Celine Sim
vomitss i hate lit !!! nows lit ARGH!!
5 minutes ago

Jaime Chng
haha. I got Chinese after lit. sad eh. thank god there's facebook.
4 minutes ago · Delete

Celine Sim
lols agreed kay bb :) go do hw le ...
3 minutes ago

Jaime Chng
okay then(:
2 minutes ago · Delete

Sherilyn Koh
AND WHYYY
2 minutes ago

Cassandra Louise Pereira
lols, since when u so innocent?
2 minutes ago

Jaime Chng
cause your boy crazy sheri. So there. FACE IT(:
Haha.
we should be" ïn school" or elearning for that matter. REcess IS OVER people.
about a minute ago · Delete

Celine Sim
since the day i was born!! sheri is seriously e so in love :)hehe
about a minute ago

Jaime Chng
exactly my point, cassandra. (Though I dont know you.)
about a minute ago · Delete

Natalie Ann
EH?!i'm a devil child. what the hell.hahah
34 seconds ago

Celine Sim
wtf jaime chng !! u so mean.
25 seconds ago

Cassandra Louise Pereira
lols
10 seconds ago

Jaime Chng
I'm zhaoing here to go to the doctors. you sad people can continue doing whatever it is your doing. Like elearning. FOR INSTANCe.
7 seconds ago · Delete

Celine Sim
lalalalalala :) someone else tagged that lalalalala not me :) haha
7 hours ago

Celine Sim
whatever jaime !!! > D byebye :)
7 hours ago

Natalie Ann
aiyo.i'm going to untag myself.i'm a very nice person okay.LOL.
7 hours ago

Celine Sim
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7 hours ago

Sherilyn Koh
wtf im NOT Jaime. Th one who is boy crazy is.. Kyra -.- WOOHOO. And yes im in love. but im not crazy. AND. anger is getting th better of me. CIAO, before I spoil facebook.
6 hours ago

Celine Sim
><
3 hours ago

Rachel Mingli
Who say's im the dreamer?!??!! And fyi CELINEEEEE your not INNOCENTTTTT!!!! (:
3 hours ago

Celine Sim
i AM !! :)
2 hours ago

Celine Sim
actually you're the sick bird
2 hours ago

Jaime Chng
Sheri, sheri darling. your not as boy crazy as kyra of course. Your just fulll of love(: Correction: SHERI IS FULL OF LOVE. and that's why we love you, of course. so don;t stay angry for too long dear, it doesn't suit you(:
9 minutes ago · Delete

Sherilyn Koh
HAHAHAHA :D I shant over SOME people :D AHAHAHAA
7 minutes ago

Corinne Amelia Sim
i love to eat (: but not A LOT what! >:[ but my avatar is so cute!
about an hour ago

Joshua Tan
wth la im not a crackhead
about an hour ago

Jaime Chng
Oh yes you are, joshua.
Haha(:
A teeny weeny bit.
2 seconds ago · Delete


And counting of course...I love these wonderful people.
Now I'm going to finish the work I was supposed to complete this morning. Buh-bye.

8:09 PM

green FREAK!

I hate you. No wait, I don''t hate you. I hate what your doing to me. I hate how you know what your doing to me and yet your doing it. I hate it man. I wish everything could just stop for one split second. I hate it, yet it seems so alright.

Hmmm. I wonder when the tears that haunt me at night are gonna stop coming cause really. Its not like its my life ambition for my eyes to constantly remain red and puffy all the time. heh.

Wish the Elearning platform would hurry up and let me log in.

9:36 AM

green FREAK!

Yes, I know. I posted already. So Im posting again. Big deal man.
Just thought I'd post something God wants me to know, according to facebook, anyways.


On this day of your life, Jaime, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.


You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

4:21 PM

green FREAK!

I'm learning to fall.


hmmm....Today was really. boring? then again what else could I possibly be expecting from this story book called my life? You totally know whats going to be on the next page.
tuition was cool. Seeing there's no other word to describe tuition. but really, what's the point of school when everybody's at tuition and extra classes almost every second. might as well cancel school all together. ya la la la. here's the point where I stare at the screen asking myself what in the world i'm going to type next.
hmmm...
And now I realise thats the second time I've gone "hmmmm".
Oh, suppose to have gone for the youth gathering to prepare for the youth outreach which i'm involved in tomorrow. So i've got to wake up super early man. Which doesn't really make any difference cause thats what i've been doing like for every single morning. So anyway, youth outreach. Couldn't make it. Sorry, Vic(: So after a couple of meetings, the days finally going to be here tomorrow. Its amazing to see how hard some of the youths and the comm has been working for tomorrow and the Sundays to come and from what I've been seeing and saw, its going to be a blast. Yay for community(:. Can't wait to outreach tomorrow.
So here is where i end this nonsensical post. Cheerios.

3:57 PM

green FREAK!

I woke up this morning, cold sweat sticking to my back as I remember.
I remember, through my defenseless sleep, when my mind roams freely across the boundaries that I put up to keep out the memories and the feelings.
And as I wipe away the tears that stream silently down.
I wonder when I would stop remembering.



Throat's killing me. Grrr. It even hurts to cough.












Just need this pain to end right now. (:

12:07 PM

green FREAK!

Feeling drugged.

With a temperature of 39.0 and having to pop pills almost every three hours, its a wonder why.
Doing my science enviormental project.
see, even when I'm sick I totally have to work still.

Serratiopeptidase 5MG take 2 tablet(s) 3 times a day
Loratadine 5MG Pseudoephedrine 120MG take 1 tablet(s) 2 times a day.
Dextromethomethorphan Gualacolate Citrate Take 10ml(s) spoonfuls 3 times a day.

On top of that, heavy doses of panadol throughout the day.
I hate cough medicine man. whoever invented the taste of it must be extremely sadistic.

10:53 AM

green FREAK!

My zombiefied, monotonous life.
Going for math tuition later.

1:45 PM

green FREAK!

Hmmm...
School was short, and sweet.
CD was good though, Beatrix was talking to me about some stuff quite abit.
Haha
Erm...Oh yes, I'm so a compass abuser ain't I?
I'm refering to the mathematical set one, btw.
Totally abused it today during math.
Angles are fun.
I should stop.\
Matthew is down with fever. He didn't have to go to school today. Lucky thing.
Well, I guess my lifes pretty routine based these days. Getting pretty predictable, I must say.
Meeting again today at 8.
And oh, oh, Harry Potter came out yesterday. I so have to watch it before I start doing something crazy. haha. So now I've been re-reading my well thumbed through Harry Potter Series. Started on Tuesday and so far I'm done with Half-Blood Prince and finishing off Deathly Hallows. Hoping to be done with the fifth by tomorow so I'll be well prepared when I catched the show.
Gosh, I must sound like some Harry Potter Geek right now. So subject change please.

Cheryl's the most talented graffiti-ist I've ever seen in the class of 2009 faith.
Tution day's tomorow, so you won't be hearing much from me.


And its the 17th.

3:31 PM

green FREAK!

Why do they call it a heart break? Seems like every single part of me is broken.

They say the pain seizes, they say with each day it goes away. They say you miss less and less. They say the tears dry. Well those, remain in the books. In my life, the pain grows worst. Each day. I cried myself to sleep last night. And I wonder why. The tears have dried by now. The tears are bound to end one day. But the internal tears still flow. And let me tell you, when they start, they never stop. Almost everything, gives you that empty, low hollow feeling in your stomach, makes your heart sink. Lost for words now. Cause no words will ever match this. This feeling, that feeling that was shared and the feelings that will be felt.

Just came back from 50th anniversary youth comm meet. My head’s swollen and throbbing now. I don’t feel exactly at the pink of health right now, both ways.


Lord, guide me. Guide we. Heal the world, Lord and start with us.

10:16 PM

green FREAK!

School was fun. Yeah, your probably thinking how the word "school"and "fun"go together. heh.
D&T was pretty cool, Me and cheryl rolled up the brown sticky paper used to protect the plastic into a fist sized ball and started playing volley ball cum hand ball. This is where you go "diao".
LISS was great.
I love you, sheri.
Claire Cheng, your loved. Whatever it is, know you'll be alright(:

4:35 PM

green FREAK!

What a fruitful day, chinese in the morning and math in the afternoon.
Prolly be homeworking later.
I look forward to laughing at matthew.

5:37 PM

green FREAK!

"Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?" -Jordan Sparks.

I fight my battles on my knees.
When the road's rough, and when I lose the ability to control my problems, when it all falls apart, I lift my pain up above to you as a sacrifice.
I know your here. I know your with me now. I know.
Even though I can't feel you or I can't here your voice, I trust that your with me. I trust that you will tell me what to do, so I wait here patiently. Knowing that you will hear me and come to me, when the times right, through your own special way. Knowing that your love for me alone is enough to sustain me for the rest of eternity.
I know you hear my cries, I know you hear my pleas. I know you cry with me. I know you know Lord. I trust in you.
"Only the future will tell how it'll end." But there is No end. There's the future. Only God will tell. Only God has the answers. I'll wait for instuctions.

Lets think it through. Lets let it settle down. Lets trust God. The Lets talk.

1:37 PM

green FREAK!

I trust in the Lord My God.
And I trust He'll let you see when the times right.
Just lift up everything. And trust completely.

5:04 PM

green FREAK!

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
Died for you

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

4:47 PM

green FREAK!

God, let me find you.

11:53 AM

green FREAK!

No regrets.
Thank you, Victoria for staying up with me last night(:

11:50 AM

green FREAK!

Maybe I was wrong.

11:44 AM

green FREAK!

Confused.

11:20 AM

green FREAK!

I sit here. I think.

Just as it happen so fast, it ended fast.

but the endings not over. The endings the next day and the next. The pain won't seize but with time I pray it will.

I never saw this coming. I really never did. I never thought it would end up this way. Guess I didn't know you as well as I thought I did. All those words now they've got me thinking. And its so easy to wonder if they were all lies. But you know, I don't think want it to be true. Because I don't want you to be capable of it. I want you to have meant it. But now I really don't know. The person I knew when I first met you. Before everything. That's how I'd like to remember. I never knew. I thought it was all fine. I guess looks can be deceiving. Your tough guy iron mask. Now as I wipe the sleepy dust from my eyes. I realise I can't fool anyone. Its not easy to hate the person you love. Its not easy to look at everything. And everything serves as a reminder everything reminds you. Everything makes you cry. Distracted during the day but at night when I'm going to sleep, I remember. When I wakeup in the morning smiling, it hits me again like a ton of bricks. I can't say I won't miss you. Because that would be a lie. I can't bring myself to hate you. Because honestly, I really don't. I can't say I'll be alright. Because I can't be sure.



I know things happen for a reason. So I don't want decisions to be changed no matter how I feel.

My feelings'll have to take a rain check. For now.

10:02 AM

green FREAK!

I want to cry.
I don't know why.
Right now as I listen to the raindrops pattern of the raindrops slowly coming to a stop, I think of everything. Every second. Everyone bit.
And I wish for a miracle.

4:54 PM

green FREAK!

I'm not ready for this to end.

4:50 PM

green FREAK!

Tiredness has seeped into my eyes. The first week back at school.
Finally I can type without irritation. Although my elbow has a certain stiffness to it which I hope I'll overcome soon. I hate that feeling of not being able to do much. Such as two months of lethargicness, thanks to long term mc's. Not that i'm going to follow it. heh. It only said no PE and CCA. So I shall refrain from that. Doesn't mean I can't work out by myself.
Asian Youth Games village was, hmmmm. A memorable experiance? Seeing its the first AYG in Singapore. Badges were really cool though. yuppish.


I don't know. Its hard, something thats going to be haunting me for the rest of time. time. time. Why is time always my worst enemy. I keep asking myself why. I keep wondering. Maybe it happened to fast. Maybe I didn't think. Maybe it was too soon. Maybe there's something more. There's always the maybe. Which I'll never ever know. Unless, unless.

6:34 PM

green FREAK!

1. I’m doing a pretty short post here cause I’ve got to go check out that GiftBearer Email.
2. Back to school. Hip, hip, hoooray. (Note the monotonous tone.)
3. Yesterday was fun.
4. Vicky and Mariel came over.
5. We had pizza.
6. We did some prep work.
7. We went over to Vicky’s.
8. And I LOVE YOU VICTORIA, FOR GETTING ME HOOKED ON SEAWEED.
9. Fabulous black stuff. Heh.
10. Cast coming off on Wednesday! (Note the joyful and enthusiastic expression)
11. Mariel is special.
12. I love you, my enemy. Jesus taught me how.
13. Ohhh! Its number 13.
14. Did I ever mention how much I love, 14? Well I do.
15. Very Much.
16. Secrets aplenty eh.
17. I predict school is going to be draggy.
18. I stand corrected.
19. School is going to be very, very boring.
20. Oh, I didn’t throw a farewell party for June.
21. Dang.
22. Goodbye, King of Pop.
23. You’ll live on in the music industry I’m sure.
24. H1N1.
25. Bacon Flu.
26. Why do snobs exist in this world. You disgust me.
27. Tuition tomorrow, just remember. (Panic expression.)
28. School tomorrow. So whats new.
29. So much for a short post.
30. I love you, 14.

5:19 PM

green FREAK!

So its a Saturday and you've got nothing to do, so what better way to spend it then at a friends place, watching movies till almost midnight?
Okay, I've got to stop there. Well firstly the sentence up there so sounds like i'm quoting ffrom some disney channel ad.
Saturday's movie night was great(: We watched August Rush and a walk to remember.
August Rush was at MarielChee's place, then the second was at Vicky's place.
Spending time with those two's been really nice.
I've come to know such wonderful, wonderful people. (Not to mention pretty crazy and wacky eh Mariel?:p)
haha
Yesterday was okay.
And Happy Fathers Day to all Daddy's reading this.
Kinda a belated one but oh well.
Ms wong let me run!!!!!!
But mummy wouldn't.
So I decided not to.
Which sucks.
Cause I so wanted to run.
But oh well. Ever the optimist I shall look upon the brighter side of things:D
At least I don't ditch my "full of life" catt class where Im narrating the presentation our classes doing. heh




I'll pray for you. And her.

3:13 PM

green FREAK!

So most of today morning was spent at coronation, being assessed by my Chinese tuition teacher on how bad my already horrible chinese actually is. After that we went to have lunch, which was quite good i must say. But not that filling....
I've just finished a medium fries and 6piece nuggets from good old macdonalds. After a bowl of laksa at lunch too.
........
........
(psst! This is where you go tsktsk.)
I swear ever since my appetite's come back, it seems to have catapulted into the bottomless pit of no return.
Oh well.
I got a call from Ms Wong regarding the Asian Youth Games Torch relay run which Im participating in when I was out. Hopefully, I'll be able to convince Ms Wong into letting me run the relay with my cast.

Fingers crossed.

1:38 PM

green FREAK!

Dear Mariel,
I am dedicating this portion to you because
1) I'm bored
2) I'm very bored
3)You look like your brother
4)You really really look like your brother
Alright anyway I'm gonna find something productive to do now. (Besides Homework.)

Love,

2:31 PM

green FREAK!

my dreams of having my previous cast removed were crushed. And I was only to find that due to a slight fracture at the back of my elbow, my entire left arm would have to remain in an even harder, almost solid, florescent orange cast for the next two weeks. Oh the things I endure for the sake of my arm. I sadly wouldn't be able to partake in the Asian Youth Games Olympic relay thingy. Ah well, but I'm really grateful, and should be. That it wasn't a broken bone. Otherwise, my arm would be in a cast for months! The idea of that already has me feeling faint.
I went to watch the Hannah Montana movie yesterday morning. The songs were really nice and meaningful, especially Butterfly fly away* but sadly the movie just seemed like another episode of the series on Disney Channel. Only a longer version.
So thats most of it, june holidays are pretty boring.
Oh. I do hope and pray that I'm not kept up by itches in my stupid cast the way I was last night. heh

*You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

1:31 PM

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Thank God for on screen keyboards. Seeing I no longer have the use of my lefthand due to the fact that I got flung off my bike while cycling around ubin on thursday with shawn, matt, clare, joel, mel and jutin. Apart from the unfortunate incident where I had to go to A&E and the trip came to an abrupt stop, I must say the trip was really enjoyable.
Claire Cheng came over today. I shall update the photoswhen I have full use of both arms.
heading to vtctoria's place now. Later.
oh sports was alright, we got second overall.
I love team kunalan and ClaireC(;

3:46 PM

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Normally, if you see a youtube video, you'll prolly just take a rain check on it. But really, this song is so worth your three minutes or so. Really great stuff.




You were talking to her
But messing with me
It's finally clear
You're blurring the lines
Are you disturbed?
Oh, now you care
Why do you race through my red lights?

Can't understand?
I'll slow it down for you

Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how
How you love me now
Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
I hate when you say
How you love me now

Save
Save it for her
I'm not gonna hear
Your reasons and "please-just-take-me-backs"
We never were right
Don't waste your breath
You crashed and you're on your own tonight


Lights out
I found out
My falling star
Goodbye
The sun rises here
There's no more you and I

How can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how
How you love me now
Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
I hate when you say
How you love me now
How you love me now
How you love me now






Addicted to Hey Monday. I so want the CD! Couldn't find it just now. RAWR!

3:53 PM

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Something to add on: right now, I could just about kill for a "Hey Monday"CD. RAWAR. haha(:

1:57 PM

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hello world.
So this morning, I spent 21/4 x 60minutes going through my mathematics SA paper with my math tuition teacher.
Apparently all my mistakes are due to carelessness like for example being too "kanjiong" in doing the sum and not reading properly, changing the +sign to a -sign etc. So its pretty, as my tuition teacher puts it, wasted.
ah well
No slacking during the 1hour I normally have after completing the paper next time then.
meeting ClaireCheng Dearest later. it'll be really good to catchup with the going ons in her life and just have some plain old nice time with the bestest girl pal in the whole entire world.

So something popped up that gave me a flashback into the past, and have something to ponder about: Truth.
Most of the time, we hide the truth from the people we love. Why? I suppose its because we want to avoid seeing the hurt and disappointment in the eyes of the ones we love. But put it this way, wouldn't it hurt more if the person finds out by his or herself what you've been keeping from him or her? it just adds betrayal to the list. So really, even though what you may be hiding is hurtful, lets face it, the truth hurts. So I can safely say i admire these people who'r straight forward, no matter how much it hurts, its better to face it there and than rather than let that little "secret"drag the relationship down. I'm not perfect, come on no one is. So once in a while a little white lie slips in, just to cover up the truth from a loved one. I've been in these kinda tough situations before. Another thing it takes: courage. Seriously, it takes alot of courage to say the hurtful truth, courage to hurt then ones you love with your words. It also takes courage to ask for forgiveness, guidance and also for a second chance.

1:27 PM

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Status: Munching on Mcwings.
So I wonder how I can possibly eat mcwings after chilied yellow noodles topped with fishballs, minced meat and fish cake at dinner. All I got to say is Old Ronald Mcdonald better be grateful from which ever part of fast food heaven he is right now. Seeing I've been patronizing his pride and joy quite abit these days. Especially when I get hit with a vanilla ice cream cone craving.
Talk about carbo-loading.
Now amidst all the chocolate rushes that've been occupying my seemingly expandable stomach, I seem to be carbo loading alot more these days.
I suppose one could say its prolly due to how ravenous one can be after sporting all day in the hot sun but, oh well.
Yesterday's one and a half packets worth of instant noodles was thoroughly enjoyed though I must say.
I shall lose all this to running rounds in the sweaty gym. Sadly.
These three words are for someone who is dearly loved; GO AND EAT! And I love you lots(:

I noticed I've been talking alot about food ever since I recovered from that fever bug I caught. Talk about appetite return. Looks like mines returned, and tripled itself.
So in this final attempt to salvage my blog post from becoming some food lovers kinda thingy, I shall talk about the weather.
Hot, hot, hot, occasional random rainfall, hot, hot, hot.
Lets hope I don't resemble a crab after outdoor training.
Nah.
I was just kidding, who wants to talk weather?
Go watch the news. On channel five. Weather report.
So forget about that sideline, lets talk Vball.
Training's heating up abit.
By saying heating up, I don't mean it in the sick, matthew ch'ng way, but I mean it in the trainings starting to get pretty intense, serious and "eyes on the prize only"kinda way, only in this case, eyes on the volleyball. So its either you sink or swim kinda feel I think.
Leg, muscle, arm, back and neck cramps; i shall openly welcome you when I wake up tomorrow.



Here's an exert from yesterdays journaling. For the record, yesterday was sun, sand and capBall with my secone sfx chohord. And Clare's goodbye at tavis stop park. So here we go.
31st May, 2009

Today, among the sun, waves, sand beneath my toes and the sound of the wind rustling the trees ahead, I finally get to let go and be the thirteen year old instead of the thirteen going on thirty state of mind I've been having for the most of these thirten years.
Today, among all the wonderful people who've made it possible, I feel like a little girl, running through the warm sun, picking up shells with her very best friends, with simply no worry at all.
Today, it seems like all the worries that send creases in my forehead and a worried look on my face, thoughts, querys and everything in the stressed filled world that I exist in has disappeared into the the calming waves of the ocean.
Today, as I picked shells with my friends, played captain's ball with my teammates, teased those two guys who followed us home, played wacko and "duck, duck goose"as we sat in a circle on the grass, I can say that I've really had fun...with my peers. Fun I've never enjoyed with my peers in the school term and since the awesome, awesome, sec one camp.
So today, I really would like to thank everyone that made it possible, All the 1elijah teens and the catechists. Natalie, Nicky and Nicole. You guys are the best! Love you guys so much(: heh

8:51 PM

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Chocolate coated frosting on walnut brownies.
I've died and gone to chocolate heaven.
Chocolate cravings have reached their maximum.

I have my ways of dealing with withdrawal symptoms^^


I keep telling myself not to give up.
But its hard, yknow.
Sometimes, I long for that black hole to just surface and swallow me up, taking me away from awkward situations. But in the end i end up facing the next day and the next.
Then again, I'm sick of moaning around and indulging myself in self pity, when I could be out doing so much more. So its a constant battle within myself.
Grr.
This is confusing.
I have to really attempt to stop this random/sudden ponderings that enter into my head.
Someone, give me a reality check, please.









On random note: Hey Monday, is really great of a band. For paramore sound alikers. heh.

3:06 PM

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So being the nolifer I am, I went to visit mariel chee /mehmeh's lj.
And I have to say I so totally agree with her. Facebook should be made illegal.
Now goodbye. (Enough retardedness.)
Im going to soak my head, I suggest you wonderful people do the same.

4:16 PM

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So whats the first thing you do when you've recovered from a pain-in-the-neck sore throat that lasted for a week and more?
Two packets of McDonald's Fries and Vanilla Ice cream. Lots and lots of ice cream, I've got a craving.
What?! So I can't help it if I suffer from really bad fast/fried/fattening food withdrawal symptoms can I?
I wouldn't be surprised if I get another sore throat sooner or later. heh.
So I guess I better stock up on the fried stuff cause, hey you never know when one of these hurtsevenwhenyoudrinkwater sore throat's gonna hit you.
It seems like I've kindly (or not) passed my germs and bacteria to mummy and matthew. So I've been running around most of the morning (sorta) for them, seeing I was the only "normal and fit" one in the house until daddy came back.
PTM(Parent Teacher Meeting) was alright. Pretty fast come to think of it. After all there isn't much to talk about random humans like me. Got my report book (That ugly blue book with the school logo where they write your marks in.) and my test scripts back and that was about it.
Volleyball; man, talk about getting back into shape let alone volleyball shape. So its been like a month or so, and considering the fact I pon four trainings sadly, due to the fever I came down with the past two weeks. So yea, I happily welcome the body aches and muscle cramps I got out of bed with this morning. Punishments for severely unfit beings. haha





I suffer from other withdrawal symptoms too, yknow.

3:45 PM

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I can almost see it,
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying "You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking





Thanks for coming over today Claire Dearest((:

5:41 PM

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Boredom has gripped the nation.
So after a short power nap or what you could call a power nap. I'm stuck hear, lamenting in front of the computer, again. That I have absolutely nothing to do.
Speaking of which, I have been really inactive for the past couple of weeks, partly due to the exams which resulted in training being cancelled for a month, and also due to the fact that I've been pretty much of a lazy pig.
I'm feeling pretty lazy currently, wondering if I should join Vicky for a run in the park later. But we'll see how it goes.
My foot hurts): Inactivity causes brittle bones and strained foots to weird humans like me. Rawr.

2:59 PM

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Ah. This is the point where you go. "Finally she's updating."And about time too, I should think. So the past, lets say around three weeks when I sort of retreated to my small study hole to prepare for the SA's and sort of disappeared off the face of the WorldWideWeb. -Yes, I never thought the days would come when I say these very, very, very sad words. My Facebook is DEAD!!!. Thank God, its been noticed. Though. So now further action can be taken.
Here's where I say, "So what should I update about?" Apparently, a lot.
Ermmmm.
The SA's were alright. They weren't exactly a breeze, then again they weren't exactly a walk through the wilderness either. So here's when I pen down all the thank you's to the ones that helped me through the First (I quote the mao), Swiney-Assessment period of this year. So A big thank you to these people. [Who know who they are(:]
The past week's been pretty eventful, with Mother's Day and My Little Sisters Birthday. So hopefully, I've been a good Daughter and Sister on both days.

Mummy-Thanks for...Everything? I know I'm not exactly the best child in the world, but yet you've never given up on me. Thanks for all the little bits of advice you've been giving me throughout my life. Thanks for sending me to school every morning so I don't have to get up at the crack of dawn to take the bus and can catchup on my most needed sleep.

Naomi- Hey My most favourite sister in the world, actually my only sister in the world. Unless Matthew's been hiding the fact that he's actually a girl all this while. But lets not go there. A big Happy Birthday to you. Its amazing how I actually watched you grow from that tiny bundle of warm, which I was careful not to drop, into the big girl you are now. Starting primary one in the place where I had the best years of my school life at! It really warms my heart to see you wearing the OLGC uniform I had to give up not to long ago. So the OLGC spirit in this household hasn't been totally lost at all eh? Thanks for your little cards and drawings that pop up randomly, you learn from the best random person around heh, and for cheering me up hearing all the funny antics you get up to throughout the day.

Hmmm.
So that's about all I suppose for the past week.
Let me bore you away with how the papers went.
My English Papers and Literature was pretty manageable, managed to write quite a bit for lit. Just hopefully it was a bit of sense and the examiner marking can see what I'm trying to get at.
Chinese was surprisingly Do-able. It wasn't another one of those times where you stare blankly at the paper, trying to make out the gibberish, that's chinese, staring coldly at you. The Passages where actually comprehend-able, for a change, instead of the usual nonsensical crap I cannot make anything out of.
I crapped my way through he history paper. Mostly. Go figure.
Geography was alright. Forgot the labeling of a volcano so some marks are bound to be deducted from there. Unless the marker's blind. Or EXTREMELY, and I mean extremely kind.
General Science was Generally alright. Physic's paper was a pain. but I pulled through it and survived.
I'm pretty confident about Math, worst fears aside, there wasn't much algebra in this paper. Thank God.


So that's my exams for you. Now more about myself.
I've never felt so happy and free in my life before. [besides after PSLE last year]
Right now I feel like I can do anything thats humanly possible. And its all thanks to wonderful people around me. haha. hmmmm. I'm bored! RAWR. Yes, I always seem to find a million and one things to do when I'm supposed to be studying and after that I find myself staring at my four bedroom walls. Now ain't that a pity? haha(:


And I love you as always.

1:48 PM

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I MISS YOU CLAIRE CHENGXL!!!
Most of all, I miss you when I'm at my best.
When I'm at my worst,
When I need someone to talk to.
When someone throws me down.
When I'm down and broken.
When confussness fills me up.
I MISS YOU.
So very very much.

4:27 PM

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Me is currently posting at Claire Ong's place. Her house blessing just finished not too long ago and me is feeling extremely stoned here. RAWR. Catechism tomorow, 1Elijahians(:







I need a break, get away from here. Slow it down, cause I'm tripping over my own two feet. I need to stop and look back, retrace the footsteps, see what we did wrongly. And how we can improve it. I'm sorry. This isn't about you, its about me. The selfish being that I am.

4:22 PM

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I've seen your pain
I've seen your fears
I've seen you strong
I've seen you painless
I've seen you weak & I've tried to be strong
together you and I we had our high hopes, and many worried fears
our talks when were just tired of the world
You wiped away my tears
You showed me that we are better then them.
But our lives are chancing,
we will no longer walk the halls together
no more out bursts of laughter in the middle of class
we started on a road together, but that amazing road is starting to split apart
the six years of memories I won’t forget
I'll try to keep my smile up, for God has blessed me with a best friend like you
but soon the tears are going to start pouring
Your the one that got me through my heart aches, my tears, my broken heart.
You cured me, you help me mend.
You walked with me the tough PSLE year last year.
I love you my best friend.


4:53 PM

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This is something I ripped off my bestest friends of all time/eternitys blog, aka the one, the only CLAIRECHENG(:(: haha, been reading her past free posts, and I relise I'm in almost everyone of them just like she's in almost everyone of mine. This just makes me miss the past even more, OLGC forever eh, Mummy says I should move on, seeing I already said Goodbye. Well,...I've never been good/great with goodbyes, letting go, moving on. But I suppose there'll be a day when thats gotta happen, but until then, I LOVE YOU OLGCIANS SO VERY MUCH(:(L)

So here's what I ripped from her blog(:
1. Whats you favourite sport?
Lemme see, Gimme a "V" gimme an "O" Hit it with a double "L", add the "EY" Throw in the "BALL". What do we have here? V-O-L-L-E-Y-B-A-L-L!!

2. How do your friends describe you?
Hmmm....how do you guys describ me?

3. Will you get married?
It all depends.

4. Do you stay angry for long?
Nope, I can never stay angry for long no matter how hard I try too. -You should ask ClaireC, We can fight and burst out in laughter tenminutes later. Sigh...-

5. Any Siblings?
Sadly, Yes:p

6. Any best friends?
Someone named CLAIRE CHENG!(: haha, I have lots of bestfriends, all around. Their really special people(:

7. Do you think you will go far in life?
I would like to think so.

8. Do you have a crush?
Crushes, crush you. So nope, not for me.

9. What's you personality like?
Hmm...I love sports! The sun is an awesome friend of mine. And yes, I'm a real childish person, I like to have FUN! Haha

10. How's your life going on?
My life? Its my life. Thankyou very much:D

4:40 PM

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Unbeautiful-Lesley Roy. Really nice song. Worth a listen.
Happy Easter to one and all.
Fiesta was a pretty happy occasion.
Oh, I love my catechism class alot. Its really nice to see the wall between us being broken down bit by bit.
Games were really erm...amusing? If you could say getting repeatedly hit by a tennis ball is amusing but oh well..whatever entertains the little kids eh?
Talking to you today was really nice. Yeah, thanks for all the understanding and such.
Trainings been postponed till after the exams, dunno if I should be happy about it or not.
Actions have consequences, that's all I think about this situation. And sometimes we've got to learn the hard way. So just know you've tried your very best. And there's nothing else you can do about it. Sometimes it just doesn't turn out the way you wanted it or the best way you want for the person. But you cared, and you know that. That's all that matters. heh((: These kinda things you shouldn't linger to hard on it too kay.
This is extremely random, Naomi looked so pretty today. And I'm referring to the "bigger" Naomi one, btw. Haha(:
And Claire Cheng came over today. Nice catching up. You bring out the child in me!(: haha.


It shows, all my emotions go
Out of control
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow
Can’t forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
I’m being calm and cool
But believe me you
It’s taking everything to just breathe.



4:37 PM

green FREAK!

Right now, I'm staring at this page, wondering where to begin.
So let's start with a few "burning questions" I have stuck in my head.

1. Did it mean that much to you? All the times we've shared? Our friendship?
2. Damn, I'm slacking in my work.
3. Somethings are really better of unknown you know.
4. You know if I had my way, none of this would be happening, We'll still be talking like old friends every Sunday in the canteen.
5. What did I ever do To you?
6. Tell me why.
7. Why are you acting like I don't exist? Why are you acting like I'm not here.
8. You know it hurts.
9. Its hurting me, so please stop it.
10. Can we just sit down and talk. Or at least tell me what's going on?
11. Chinese is just here to torture little kids.
12. Holy week was really awesome.
13. I still think your the cutest:p
14. HAHA
15. I should be the one to give in.
16. So I shall.
17. Cause we're fighting a losing battle.
18. Your my strengh. Thanks.
19. Dear Lord, I just want you to know that I know your here for me always and your watching over me, and even tthough at times it might seem that your not. I know your still there, whereever you might be. And I know that your the ONE that I can always turn to, whenever I need someone, a friend.
20. Ignorance isn't going to help anything you know. And its definately not a bliss.
21. Maybe I should just learn to have that "can't be bothered" attitude too.
22. But I'll still come anyway.
23. Oh, This ones for you(:

Gonna stay in bed today
Cause I can't stand the light
Don't know why I get so down
I won't be much fun tonight
And I can't believe you still wanna hang around me
It's not so pretty all the time
You don't mind
To you it's alright

As I am is how you take me
Never try to push
Make me different
When I talk you listen to me
As I am is how you want me
I know I've found the pieces missing
I'm looking at him

I'm not the girl you think you see
But maybe that's a lie
You almost know me better than me myself and I
Don't know a lot of things
But I know what I got
It's not so perfect everyday
I don't have to try
Cuz it all falls into place

As I am is how you want me
I know I've found the pieces missing
I'm looking at him

I'm never going to go away, standing here loving you, always.

4:21 PM

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I just finished the 50note thingy I got tagged on.
And the whole thing jammed up on me. So now Im contemplating on wether or not I should go and do it again. Ah well.
This week went pretty well.
Managed to go for mass on thursday despite the hectic schedule and all. And for that I can only thank God.
yeah. Week passed pretty fast eh.
Holy week's coming up. I should take some time to spend more time with my creator. Get to know him a little bit more. And find out what purpose he wants me to achieve for him through his ministery and works.


You know what? If you want to blame anyone, blame me. Not him. Cause its not anyone's fault. So yea. I'm sick and tired of having the cold-shoulder treatment. I love you too, and I don't mean or want to hurt or anger you. So please stop it. Stop lashing out at the people I love. Cause your hurting me too. And please spare the pretence and don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about. The past is the past, maybe we all could use a little help in moving on. Including me. I've been there. And I know its not as simple as it may seem. I don't want to start a war here. So I'm going to be the one to back away. And remember that I love you too. Just not in that way.




"Baby" I'm going to relieve my babyhood with you. I love you.

4:02 PM

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Your always on my mind. Every second. I love you.

4:19 PM

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Random thought: I miss Claire.

4:09 PM

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Mega updating to do.
Hmm..This week to be honest,
Wasn't so bad.
Oh...so much for updating.
I have nothing much to post about. heh.
Volleyball-Training was fun, New coaches training scheme's pretty enjoyable but tiring all the same. Realised I've got to brush up on my spiking skills abit. Coach said I've been placing my arms in abit of a tough position which explains why when I spike or attempt to spike, the ball hardly goes over the net. Oh well.
And its been pretty tough getting my mind focused back on the game. Seeing how during the holidays I barely practiced and how I skived off training on monday due to the fact I wasn't exactly in the fittest of health. So yea...Need to go practice.
And Pft(Physical fitness Test)'s around the corner so I need to go do some rounds. Yeah. feel like running now. So badly. Last time I ran was...yesterday. But that was only 600m. Gah...I need to run. I shall run in circles around my bedroom if I get too desperate.
Um...There's alot thats been going around this week. Time's my worst frienemy. Heh. Hm..Nothing much to add to that I guess. Alot on my mind lately. especially someone really really really cute. :x
Heading to church for awhile tonight. Gotta clear the canteen for tomorow.
Finished my homework. Not much there was to do anyway.


Oh and btw, I think your too nice.

3:44 PM

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life just sucks. Doesn't it? Well, mine does. At any rate.
Lets run through this week of doom.
Monday-Will suck.
Tuesday-might be slightly better, but most of it'll suck.
Wednesday-Will suck.
Thursday-Will suck.
Friday-Will suck abit. But it'll be much, much better.
Saturday-Slacking day.
Sunday-Will probably be the best day this week. Then its back to square one.
This is stupid.
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Help me get through this week. I can't do it on my own.

9:30 PM

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Great. Great. Great. School is starting tomorrow. Now I really want to die.




But you know I wouldn’t. Because you make me want to hang on a little longer. mmmm.

9:20 PM

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I'm being EXTREMELY super sarcastic now. I really have no idea why. Really sorry about it. heh.
And school is starting tomorow. Lets go and cry.
RAWR. See the sarcasam? hm. Now I shall try and get back into the normal mood before I scare people off.
Oh wells. I shall say something I just found out/realised. My index number is thirteen! That explains alot doesn't it? haha(:
Update now:
Weeks been pretty enjoyable so far. [No school, see school's a bad omen. heh, jk]
Yupp. Today was really great.
Um. yeah. that all I'm going to say.
Catt was really nice. Joshua somehow's been "posted" to our class. yea.
I think we're all kindof closer in some way, think camp bonded us alot. which is I suppose one of the reason's behind camps. There's alot more sharing going on. Which is good, I suppose.
GiftBearers session today was hm, different? In a way, there was alot more writing. heh. which is good in a way, seeing the group gets more exposed to writing and other stuff. Yupp. Recruiting members, so come join, you won't regret it. Unless your a boy. heh. Ok, I should stop here before I end up sounding like some sort of promoter. But seriously, join. If you've got some sort of feeling edging you to join then just do it. mmm(:

One of the song which lyrics have struck me of some sort.



How did I get here
I turned around and there you were
Didn't think twice or rationalize
Cause somehow I knew
That there was more that just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kind of into me
But I figured it's too good to be true

I said pinch me, where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get use to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can not believe it

You're one in a million

All this time I was lookin' for love
Trying to make things work that wasn't good enough
Til' I thought I'm through
Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms of the one

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you, you come with your velvet touch

Can't believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can not believe it
You're one in a million



All this time I was lookin' for love
Trying to make things work that wasn't good enough
Til' I thought I'm through
Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms of the one

I said pinch me where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can not believe it


They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can not believe it
You're one in a million
Yeah
You're one in a million
Yeah
You're one in a million

8:00 PM

green FREAK!

I’m falling. And I don’t mind. So don’t stop me. Cause it’s not like the last few times. Its DIFFERENT. And I’m perfectly fine with that. Thank you very much. Haha
I shall mega update later. If I can be bothered too(: hmmm. I need to type out my essays. Or atleast get them printed. Cause I doubt my teacher can read through the messy script that it is now.

5:42 PM

green FREAK!

Got my lazy ass to upload these photos. Now I'm "exhausted" so I shall go to sleep. Time nows:1002.
2minutes late:x haha(:

9:57 PM

green FREAK!

"hello. Updating in process. Bye."
:p




hmmmmmm. I'm at my best.(: And I'm lazy to update. Stone me.

9:33 PM

green FREAK!

Tears. Confusion. I don't know how I'm supposed to think. Or say. Or do. Its hurts me to you know. I'm trying. It scares me too you know. Why. I don't know why I find it hard to take another step when I've fallen so many times. Its scary for me to take a step. Take a chance. I'm sorry. I'm wrong. It's hard. I'm afraid. I don't know why I'm scared or wary of love. Heh. Super long day. Prob crashing earlier. Going to sleep all my worries away. Unless they keep me up in bed all night.

9:50 PM

green FREAK!

Todays slackyy so far.
Seeing that I wokeupp about an hour ago.
Today wasn't really well spent.
And I'm trying not to look at the pile of work I've got to finish.
Yet I'm constantly reminding myself not to leave it to the last minute.
Phone's kinda screwed up, so it means I won't or can't reply your messages.
Feel free to call me.
Heh
Feeling really sick and unwell. Prolly the after-camp bug.
So I shall Do this quiz I took from Naomi (Goh)'s blog.


If you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 240 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own blog, paste this as a note post. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

[ ] Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Grease
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
[ ] Boondock Saints
[ ] Fight Club
[X] Starsky and Hutch
[ ] Neverending Story
[ ] Blazing Saddles
[ ] Airplane (Flying High)
Total so far: 3

[ ] The Princess Bride
[ ] Anchorman
[ ] Napoleon Dynamite
[ ] Labyrinth
[ ] Saw
[ ] Saw II
[ ] White Noise
[ ] White Oleander
[X] Anger Management
[ ] 50 First Dates
[X] The Princess Diaries
[X] The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 6

[ ] Scream
[ ] Scream 2
[ ] Scream 3
[ ] Scary Movie
[ ] Scary Movie 2
[X] Scary Movie 3
[ ] Scary Movie 4
[ ] American Pie
[ ] American Pie 2
[ ] American Wedding
[ ] American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 7

[X] Harry Potter 1
[X] Harry Potter 2
[X] Harry Potter 3
[X] Harry Potter 4
[ ] Resident Evil 1
[ ] Resident Evil 2
[ ] The Wedding Singer
[ ] Little Black Book
[ ] The Village
[X] Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 12

[X] Finding Nemo
[ ] Finding Neverland
[ ] Signs
[ ] The Grinch
[ ] Texas Chainsaw Massacre
[ ] Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
[ ] White Chicks
[ ] Butterfly Effect
[X] 13 Going on 30
[X] I, Robot
[ ] Robots
Total so far: 15

[ ] Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
[ ] Universal Soldier
[ ] Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[ ] Along Came Polly
[ ] Deep Impact
[ ] KingPin
[ ] Never Been Kissed
[ ] Meet The Parents
[ ] Meet the Fockers
[ ] Eight Crazy Nights
[ ] Joe Dirt
[X] KING KONG
Total so far: 16

[X] A Cinderella Story
[ ] The Terminal
[X] The Lizzie McGuire Movie
[X] Passport to Paris
[ ] Dumb & Dumber
[ ] Dumber & Dumberer
[ ] Final Destination
[ ] Final Destination 2
[ ] Final Destination 3
[ ] Halloween
[ ] The Ring
[ ] The Ring 2
[ ] Surviving X-MAS
[ ] Flubber
Total so far: 19

[ ] Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
[ ] Practical Magic
[ ] Chicago
[ ] Ghost Ship
[ ] From Hell
[ ] Hellboy
[ ] Secret Window
[ ] I Am Sam
[ ] The Whole Nine Yards
[ ] The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 19

[ ] The Day After Tomorrow
[ ] Child's Play
[ ] Seed of Chucky
[ ] Bride of Chucky
[X] Ten Things I Hate About You
[ ] Just Married
[ ] Gothika
[ ] Nightmare on Elm Street
[ ] Sixteen Candles
[ ] Remember the Titans
[ ] Coach Carter
[ ] The Grudge
[ ] The Grudge 2
[ ] The Mask
[ ] Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 20

[ ] Bad Boys
[ ] Bad Boys 2
[ ] Joy Ride
[ ] Lucky Number Slevin
[ ] Ocean's Eleven
[ ] Ocean's Twelve
[ ] Bourne Identity
[ ] Bourne Supremacy
[ ] Lone Star
[ ] Bedazzled
[ ] Predator I
[ ] Predator II
[ ] The Fog
[X] Ice Age
[X] Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
[ ] Curious George
Total so far: 22

[ ] Independence Day
[ ] Cujo
[ ] A Bronx Tale
[ ] Darkness Falls
[ ] Christine
[X] ET
[ ] Children of the Corn
[ ] My Boss's Daughter
[ ] Maid in Manhattan
[ ] War of the Worlds
[X] Rush Hour
[X] Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 25

[ ] Best Bet
[X] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] She's All That
[ ] Calendar Girls
[ ] Sideways
[ ] Mars Attacks
[ ] Event Horizon
[X] Ever After
[ ] Wizard of Oz
[ ] Forrest Gump
[ ] Big Trouble in Little China
[X] The Terminator
[X] The Terminator 2
[X] The Terminator 3
Total so far: 30

[X] X-Men
[X] X-2
[ ] X-3
[X] Spider-Man
[X] Spider-Man 2
[ ]Spider-Man 3
[X] Sky High
[ ] Jeepers Creepers
[ ] Jeepers Creepers 2
[ ] Catch Me If You Can
[X] The Little Mermaid
[X] Freaky Friday
[ ] Reign of Fire
[ ] The Skulls
[ ] Cruel Intentions
[ ] Cruel Intentions 2
[ ] The Hot Chick
[X] Shrek
[X] Shrek 2
Total so far: 39

[ ] Swimfan
[ ] Miracle on 34th street
[ ] Old School
[ ] The Notebook
[ ] K-Pax
[ ] Krippendorf's Tribe
[ ] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Ice Castles
[ ] Boogeyman
[ ] The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 39

[ ] Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
[ ] Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
[ ] Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
[X] Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
[X] Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
[X] Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 42

[ ] Baseketball
[ ] Hostel
[ ] Waiting for Guffman
[ ] House of 1000 Corpses
[ ] Devils Rejects
[ ] Elf
[ ] Highlander
[ ] Mothman Prophecies
[ ] American History
[ ] Three
Total so Far: 42

[ ] The Jacket
[X] Kung Fu Hustle
[ ] Shaolin Soccer
[ ] Night Watch
[X] Monsters Inc.
[X] Titanic
[ ] Monty Python and the Holy Grail
[ ] Shaun Of the Dead
[ ] Willard
Total so far: 45

[ ] High Tension
[ ] Club Dread
[ ] Hulk
[ ] Dawn Of the Dead
[ ] Hook
[X] Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
[ ] 28 days later
[ ] Orgazmo
[ ] Phantasm
[ ] Waterworld
Total so far: 46

[ ] Kill Bill vol 1
[ ] Kill Bill vol 2
[ ] Mortal Kombat
[ ] Wolf Creek
[ ] Kingdom of Heaven
[ ] The Hills Have Eyes
[ ] I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
[ ] The Last House on the Left
[ ] Re-Animator
[ ] Army of Darkness
Total so far: 46

[X] Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
[ ] Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
[X] Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
[X] Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
[X] Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
[X] Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
[ ] Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
[ ] Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 51

[X] The Matrix
[X] The Matrix Reloaded
[X] The Matrix Revolutions
[ ] Animatrix
[ ] Evil Dead
[ ] Evil Dead 2
[ ] Team America: World Police
[ ] Red Dragon
[ ] Silence of the Lamb

54. Whoah this quiz has reminded me about the movies I really wanted the watch but never really got down to watching it. heh

3:50 PM

green FREAK!

Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart/mind again. I don't know, can't see. Words come over me.

3:23 PM

green FREAK!

I dunno what to think anymore.
Camp was a really nice experiance.
Sometimes you need to face reality just alittle bit to wake you up and make you realise.
Thanks Claire(mao). Yeah, I know I'm not the only one.
Camp made me reflect and think alot
About the past happenings and etc.
I want to try to strive to do something good in this time of my life.
I don't know what it might be but I believe God has a plan for me.
Thanks to all the awesome people who send me those "warm fuzzies".
Yupp. You guys rock.
1Elijah is the bestest of the best. Love you guys(:
Park games were fun.
Thanks to our Facil.s Zoa, Shawn and Aunty Serene. Thanks for the "touch times".
I feel a hell lot at peace and alot better now.
The sessions were really reflective. Pity it was too short:x heh.
Randomness from me.
I'm not sure what when wrong. At least give me a chance to explain myself.
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Tell me why?
Its so hard to fall again.
Its like I keep tripping and picking myself up only to have you throw me even further down to the ground again.

2:46 PM

green FREAK!

One week passes quickly, doesn't it?
What happened so far;
Common tests returned.
Yupp, marks were...alright?
Scrapped through all except Chinese.
Yeah. I should use this time to study Chinese. Though you and I know that's never gonna happen.
Um...Volleyball training. My heart and concentration wasn't fully into the game. And volleyball needs total attention to be able to hit the ball. So you really need to I quote HSM, "Getcha Head in the game." Yupp. Sigh, I shall go brush up on my skills. I'm determined that this week will be better than the last.
Watched Marley and Me with Mum yesterday. Really good show. Cried my eyes out.
heh.
Went to compass. Bought some stuff from 77th street and popular.
Went out with Pandora.
Had first cheer[L] prac. in weeks. Need to get myself back into that mode too.
Went for Seven today, canteen, Catt class kinda "brightening up?" SecOne church Camp next week, something I should be able to look forward too. Hence I shall be M.I.A for the whole of next weekend. Went for lunch, Frolicked(: then headed for GB session, had reflections on the Lenten season. This Lent, I pray for patience, not to be so crappy at times and bring others down. Oh Gift Bearers doing the canteen in around 2weeks. Support yupp.

I need to save myself, from myself.

3:39 PM

green FREAK!

I suppose yesterday doesnt mean literally yesterday. More of the good times you've spent with people you love and who Love you. Thanks, if you've made a difference in my life. No matter what or how small it is. You still have made a difference. And I love and appriciate you for it.

9:55 PM

green FREAK!

Today was kinda surreal.
Don't ask me why, but it just was.
heh, mircale that I managed to wake up today after last night's dinner/bowling.
And since its a period of abstenince and sacrifice.
I shall atempt to facebook and use the comp less.
Let's see the maximum of my control.
Feeling slightly happier, calmer and there's sorta a sense of peace.
So today was spent mostly in church, at macs and home(duh).
Catt class was quite um, reflective.
Talked about how easy it is to fall into the temptation of evil. And how its harder to do what's right. Which is why we must fight the temptation. Sharing was meaningful.
Brought us to the adoration room.
Which helped abit.
Then it was lunch.
And amazingly it was extremly hot at that time at it suddenly started pouring in the evening so we couldn't have football):
Oh, I met ClaireDearest at macs today.
Really great to catch up.
But of course it couldnt last forever.
So I had to leave):
But I shall make an attempt to meet up with all the 2008 ex-olgcians once a year.
School tomorow. Going to try to get through this week with a smile on my face.
If its possible.

9:16 PM

green FREAK!